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So today? Sucked. Woke up feeling a little nauseated and not so great. That rapidly turned into a raging migraine. I tried to tough it out, took a cocktail of Excedrin, ibuprofin, Benadryl and large amounts of caffeine. No luck. By 11 it felt like I was dying. Literally. My head hurt so much I couldn't breathe. So I gave in and took a Zomig.

Now, normally this wouldn't be an issue, I have the Zomig specifically for this reason. They can only be used to treat migraines, and I refill my RX for them every month because I need them. But in their infinite wisdom, the Insurance companies have decreed that I am only allowed 6 tablets a month. Because that is all anyone could need, right?

Except for the part where it can take anywhere from 2-4 pills to treat ONE MIGRAINE. I get on average, anywhere from 6-10 separate and distinct migraines a month. Now not every migraine requires a Zomig, but the ones that last 5 days? Can eat up my entire month's allotment of pills pretty quickly.

So I try and manage them as best I can, saving the Zomig for the ones that are really bad. As opposed to the ones that are just moderately bad. To give you an idea of my scale I'm using here, imagine your head is in a vise that keeps tightening down with every breath you take. At the same time, your brain is expanding and pressing against the confines of your skull to the point where you swear you can feel cracks developing as your bones threaten to explode outwards. Every beat of your heart causes your veins to pulse and feel as if they are expanding so much they are going to burst out of your body. The light feels like ice picks stabbing into your eyes every time you blink, and any sound louder than a whisper feels like a stadium full of people screaming into your ear at the top of their lungs. Your skin is oversenstive, so even your softest flannel sheets feel like sandpaper rubbing you raw, and your body can't regulate your temperature so you alternate feeling as if you are locked in a freezer with feeling like you have been plunged into the heart of a volcano. And to top it all off, you have nausea worse than the worst case of food poisoning that you ever experienced. Water won't stay down, nothing will. That is a moderately bad migraine for me.

I know I am incredibly lucky to have health insurance through my job, and I thank the Universe constantly for the care that I am able to get. But there is something wrong in our health care system. My doctor thinks I should have a supply of 12 tablets a month, but my insurance carrier limits me to 6 every 30 days. And for those 6 pills, I pay 8x my usual RX co-pay. I can't get a second RX for a different brand of triptan, because the limit applies to all brands. If I wanted to I could pay for the additional 6 out of pocket, but at approx $43 a pill, well that's not going to happen. I have paid for one or two pills out of pocket when I'm having a particularly bad month, but financially I just can't afford that on a regular basis.

I had 3 pills I had been hoarding this month. I am going to England in a week and I wanted to make sure I had pills so I wouldn't miss any of my vacation to lying in bed wishing someone would come park their big rig on my head. But I had to take one of my pills, I could not endure the pain. So now I have 2 left. And if I'm very lucky, I won't need those 2 pills before I leave.

I got a migraine while I was in Canada, I spent most of the day mainlining caffeine and puking in public restrooms because I refused to let my migraine rob me of a day on vacation. I don't want to do that in London, but I will if I have to. I will take my cocktail of OTC meds and pray that I don't end up ruining my kidney and/or liver before I turn 50. I will hoarde my pills like they are the last ones on Earth. I will continue to take meds that are used to treat epilepsy off label on the chance that they are helping reduce the frequency of my migraines, and deal with the side effect. I will go to my Neurologist and ask if there is any new insight into what causes migraines or how to prevent them.

And every month I will get my 6 pills and wonder how long they will last this time.
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